feeling a little caught off guard

This week I've been working on my 1st draft of the academic history essay ....and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one!! : ) I don't think I was prepared for all that it would involve! I'm still not even sure what the end result is suppose to look like. As I write, there's this nagging voice in the back of my mind saying, "Are you sure this is right? What if that's not what your professors looking for." I want to tell it to leave me alone and let me write!
This has turned out to be an emotional look inward for me. I've never had to spend this much time analyzing myself before. It's been a new and at times confusing journey. (If you're out there and you're thinking, "Wow, I feel the same way!"....then please let me know so that I can feel relatively normal!)
Well, anyways... While working on this paper, I've discovered a lot of things about myself that I think have always been there, but just escaped my notice somehow. Some of them I'm proud of and some of them are the kinds of things that you want to "sweep under the rug" so to speak. It's taking a lot of bravery to paint a picture of the "real me" in my paper instead of what I wish I was!
The only thing I know to do right now is to trust my instinct and try me best!

Chinese Bible study

Hi, Everyone!! Today I want to write about one of the things that I love the most about MC. There are about 300 Chinese students here at MC. I've always been interested in their culture and wanted to learn the language, so I was very excited when I realized that I would have a little piece of China right here in Mississippi....of all places! Right now I'm taking Chinese 201 and absolutely love it even though it's a very hard language to learn. Most of you are probably thinking I'm a little crazy and wondering why I didn't pick Spanish or French, or something like that. I guess my motivation is my desire to reach the Chinese people and tell them about the Lord.
Well, I'm getting the chance to do that. My husband and I help out at a Bible study for Chinese students every Friday night. Jeff (my husband) teaches one of the lessons (the one in English....we're no wheres near fluent in Chinese yet!) and I just hang out and try to get to know the students and encourage them. I can't imagine how hard it is for them to come here and try to get a degree at a college that dosn't use their native language.
Anyways, I love this Bible study beacuse it's like jumping into another culture for an evening. They eat Chinese food and most of the singing and everything is in Chinese (Except for Jeff's Bible study, of course!) I have lots of people that love helping me practice my Chinese, and I feel like I can somewho help them be more comfortable and confident at MC. It's a great deal for eveyone involved!!

My First blog!

Hi, Everybody!! I'm writing my first blog! ....I'm still not sure how I feel about this, but I think it'll be fun. My name is Bethany and I'm a student at Mississippi College. I'm doing this blog as part of my English 101 class. I'm originaly from New York state, but I've been here for about three years. I'm a long way from home, but I'm married and Mississippi has become home for me and my husband.
I've really loved being at MC! There's lots of neat people here. I really like getting to know the Chinese students. My husband and I go to a Chinese Bible study every Friday night that I absolutely love! I'll probably talk more about that later. ....till next time