This week I've been working on my 1st draft of the academic history essay ....and I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one!! : ) I don't think I was prepared for all that it would involve! I'm still not even sure what the end result is suppose to look like. As I write, there's this nagging voice in the back of my mind saying, "Are you sure this is right? What if that's not what your professors looking for." I want to tell it to leave me alone and let me write!
This has turned out to be an emotional look inward for me. I've never had to spend this much time analyzing myself before. It's been a new and at times confusing journey. (If you're out there and you're thinking, "Wow, I feel the same way!"....then please let me know so that I can feel relatively normal!)
Well, anyways... While working on this paper, I've discovered a lot of things about myself that I think have always been there, but just escaped my notice somehow. Some of them I'm proud of and some of them are the kinds of things that you want to "sweep under the rug" so to speak. It's taking a lot of bravery to paint a picture of the "real me" in my paper instead of what I wish I was!
The only thing I know to do right now is to trust my instinct and try me best!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
5 comments:
Trust me, that is completely normal to feel that way! I do too! You have a good approach to writing though!
I know how you feel. I spent a lot of time digging through some things I learned about myself through analyzing some of the things I've done. To be honest, I didn't really like the person I saw too much. But it really helps me to keep from making those same mistakes now.
I am in total agreement with you about this paper being an "emotional look inward." It has definitely forced me to think about things that I've really never THOUGHT about before. It's almost like I'm learning stuff that I knew about myself but never really acknowledged.
Haha. I am totally right there with you. It's hard to ignore that voice that's telling you that you're doingi it wrong. Go with what feels right and your paper will be great :)
I agree with you. At first I thought my draft was great. Now I am having my doubts. I think I have to make a few major changes to my paper.
Post a Comment